In memorian...

My rabbit just passed away this morning...
and i really lost someone that i miss and love..
I dont noe why i couldnt cry although i want to..
It really shocked me up when my brother called me yesterday via phone..
said that my rabbit didnt feeling well..
I feel relief after i heard that he give my rabbit a medicine and plan to take my rabbit to the doctor today..
but,its too late...
my rabbit died infront of my brother eyes...
I got this bad news from him today at 8 morning..
I just have a sort time to accompany and take a good care of it..
i just wish that i was in Medan..maybe i still can prevent it too happen..
i really hate myself..why i'm not responsible in handling this???
Why i go here and leave it to my brother to take care??
When I'm leaving my home,i feel like this will become my last meeting between me and my rabbit..i try to think positive,but....it turn out become like this!!
I really hope that God can give him a chance to live and meet me...
I think God didnt give me a chance to..instead of taking his life away..
I only hope that he can life in the Heaven happily and become an Angel that can protect us from any danger anytime anywhere we are...
I really appreciate our meeting in our life..
although my rabbit is a male..he seems like my own son you know??
I try my best to take care of him,make sure he is in a good condition...it is my fault to leave him behind...
I'm a jerk..
My brother ask me not to buy any kind of animals anymore...
since he is the one who saw my rabbit died..,.
I can understand and accept his feeling..
He had been cried since this morning..
Why i make this kind of thing become worser and worser?????
WHY!!??
I really feel sorry for my rabbit..
hope he can forgive what i have done to him...
Really..
I really dont understand what is the problem that could make him die..
because my brother told me that yesterday night around 7 he is still oc...
is this a fate??
I really wish i could hug him and touch him one more time..
just one more time...
and say goodbye to him..
I just had a dream this morning and i heard that someone came to me and said that my rabbit leave a message for me..
If i'm not mistaken..the message is like this..
He doesnt want to make me and brother quarel because of him..
and then dream he come to me with smiling and hug me for the last time..
i really feel like wanna cry right now...
I really cant stand it anymore..
I just hope that when i come home i can see him waiting for me to say "Hi,I'm home!!"
Now,it is just a dream..a dream that cant become true...
Last but not least...
Hope God can accept him and make him become an Angel...it is my last wish..
I just want my rabbit to life happily in the Heaven..
Whenever I saw his photos and videos..it reminds me how happy am I when he is around me..
So,God..I really hope that you can grand my last wish for my rabbit..
Last word for my rabbit...

Dear Glade'z,
Really sorry,sorry for everything...i cant be in ur side when you died..
i really hope that you can forgive me...
i know that I'm wrong...I'm not worth to become ur master who always take a responsibility of taking a good care of his or her pets..
I just want you to take care always,and life happily in there...
Hope we can meet with each other again in another life and become best friends...
Glade'z...hope you can hear and see what am i trying to say to you..
I really really sorry for leaving you behind..sorry glade'z....
I'm gonna miss you so much...
Hope you can find a friends in there where can take a good care and love you..
Take care always,my dear lil rabbit..

Love you,
Fandy..

God,i hope that you could send my message to him and grand my last wish for him..
Thank you God..
Goodbye Glade'z..
We will gonna miss you..
Dont forget about us..okay??
about me,cia yin,ivan,my mom,my servant...
Don't forget...
Love you so much
Xoxo


Posted by : Fandy (Milk)